Busy

Can't update blog.... too busy....

I thank Min and Tin for their patience and kindness.
Ah, so many things to do; so little time.
What the fudge am I gonna do? (O__O)

Sun-bun's Webcam

Pics of the Sleepover (courtesy of Sanie's webcam):

Gory Exams and The Sleepover

" You can never hide who, and what you are. "

My head stopped functioning.
Ask Tin, she'd tell you the whole story. I wasn't simply bleeding over my exams; I was chopped in-half and had the lower portion of myself lolling on the floor. But, eh... it could have been worse. I could have been eaten whole, partially digested and spat out multiple times. XD


Science surprised me. Turns out, my notes weren't complete, and had to pay the dire consequences during the exams. The rest was easy peasy, though. Journalism, especially. Tin's use of the term, 'headbutt' was all wrong. Amusing, really. I mean, 'headbutts and uppercuts'? Purely ridiculous, especially when you pull the image back and forth from your mental imagery. The rest of the week is going to be pretty hectic for me: I still have RS to finish. Everyone else, on the other hand, will have to go flitting through the lush fields of freedom without me. And they'll be enjoying it. Again, without me.


-sigh- No time to mope around in depression and remorse now. My current goal is to be free of all forms of RS before vacation starts, so it won't lag me during my enrollment in US. For this summer, I'm going to be spending time with Min and Tin, attending their workshop from last summer. I'm pretty hyped-up about it, especially since my mom was pretty easygoing about letting me join. My mom's cool that way. :3

Once again, I shall stick to my abstinence of randomness! I am typing this blog post through Sanie's laptop, at her house. We had (or are currently having) a sleepover so we could finish this god-forsaken miniature department store project which, I may add, NO ONE had bothered to help us with. NO ONE.
... At all.


Well, back to work. Their complaining about me typing too much. Hehe~.
Er, I'll write the details when I get the chance.

Points of Reason

"My life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars ---- points of light and reason.
And then you shot across my sky like a lingering comet. Everything was on fire; there was brilliance,
there was beauty. When you were gone, when the flaring comet had fallen over the horizon,
everything went black. Nothing had changed, but I couldn't see the stars anymore."

Today was our first day of exams and I think a piece of my brain died back in the Algebra test. As usual, Filipino went scrap for me. I studied, but there were... still CERTAIN words I couldn't quite get or were too embarrassed to ask what it would mean. Gah. I spend the day before today plainly studying. Yes, I study: contrary to popular belief.


I read and re-read my oration piece over and over again. I think I finally got the hang of the expression and stuff. Meh piece is the entitled "1978 DNC Keynote Address" by Barbara Jordan. I've memorized approximately 75% of it without having to read it AT ALL. ;D Well, I can't go any farther than this. Tomorrows Science, CL and such. So me hash gots to study. Bye peoples. (^-^)

Backfired Entertainment

" Elevating teen angst to Shakesperean proportions."

Okay, so from a recent comment from a certain SOMEONE, I'm working on making my blog posts less angsty. Yes, I'm finally getting tired of wallowing in my own misery. Why, you ask? Well, while Kai is usually labeled as the rocker-chic and Myrtle as the drama star, I'm seen as the weird, emo girl. Yes, it gets tiring. So~. I'm gonna be less of a faggot and actually get my arse to DO something.


Rawr. Isn't the effin' world cruel enough? Aren't the little boys and girls living in 'Teen World' already suffering?
Do we have to have.... E X A M S, too?! Ah, yes. Dreaded exams. And I still have !#$%^ RS with S.S. Yush, I'm working on it. But god, I don't know how much more my poor printer can take. It's only a matter of time till' it gets all constipated like all the other printers out there due to overuse.


Besides the talk of exams in the air, the Art Club has finally gotten to displaying their paintings within Robinsons Mall. It was next to the foodcourt, and so most people with at least decent attention spans could see and take time to view the club's work. Surprisingly, many were viewing it. Though seeing the exhibit in such an open area wasn't such a good thing. Sir Evan posted pics of us without bothering to get our consent. I looked retardedly different in those pics, and ended up attempting to rip one of them off from the board. People were looking at the pics!
It also made it feel like it was the last straw when some pimply teen dudes took a snpashot of the pics with their cellphones. One of them bothered to circle around the entire exhibit area just to stare at me and probably see if we were the same people in those pics. I'm not sure everyone else noticed, mainly cause' they were talking, so I didn't bother to mention it. -cringe- (O_o)


We ate at a nearby cafe' named the Planetarium. Turns out it was owned by Erika's parents, and so we ate for free. XDD We met Mikki there, the drummer and one of Myrtle's band dudes, who was there to pick her up cause' she didn't know how to get to Yamaha by herself. (^.^);
We went back up Robinsons to let Mikki view the club's paintings, and then we got downstairs again to play with an arcade crane. Er, you know... the ones that pick-up stuffed toys using a duded claw. While everyone was playing, I was just simply walking around whilst carrying Myrtle's folder and my bagpack. Being in charge of randomness and entertaining Mikki, I punched a nearby mechanical cow. The rest of the cow was like a stuffed animal.
Except for the eye. I punched the eye, and doubled-back in pain. (=_=)


After saying our farewell to Mikki and Myrtle who would be on their way to Yamaha, we took to the business of finding a jeep and riding back to Angelicum~.

"It's not everything, but it is something."

Something
Escape the Fate

So now your running,
Its hard to see clearly,
When I make you angry
You're stuck in the past
And now your screamin'
So can you forgive me?
I've treated you badly
But I am still here


Sometimes I wonder
why I'm still waiting
Sometimes I'm shaking
That's how you make me
Sometimes I question
why I'm still here
Sometimes I think I'm going crazy


Can you help me understand?


And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something
to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something
to somebody else
(Something to somebody else
Something to somebody else)


You look at me through clouded eyes
I know you see through my lies
See the sky, see the stars?
All of this could be ours.
Out of sight, out of mind...
We've been through this
a thousand times
Turn your back and then you
make me feel so crazy


Can you help me understand?


And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something
to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something
to somebody else.

You know I would wait forever
Yes, I would wait...
(I would wait)
You know I would wait forever
Yes, I would wait...

And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something
to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something
to somebody else
And I'm the one who should mean something!
But still, you wish that you meant something
to somebody else

Something to somebody else... Something to somebody else




Song #7

Despondent

" He still thinks of her, and I still think of him. But is it really the same thing? "


When life gives you shit, sell it as fertilizer.


But what if -- what if the crap just keeps piling up and you have no one else to sell it to? Can you honestly keep-up the pace of giving your troubles away through the little emencies of life over and over again? I'll be leaving sometime this summer vacation. I'm happy cause' I'm leaving, and yet I'm not cause' I'm leaving everything else I've known behind me; tucked into the little corner of blurriness that has become my memory.

I've been lying to myself for so long, denying the possibilities and emotions which I have kept hidden for such a despondent amount of time. A friend of mine has claimed to have changed, but have I? And if I did, was it for myself or for others?

I'm sure I am still the same Jeanne that first passed through the hallways of highschool and shook the hands of her first few friends. And yet, I can't help but acknowledge that nagging sensation that says otherwise.

Dark Paint

I'm feeling especially lazy today, so I shall copy and paste this blog entry from Kai. It pretty much contains all the info you need to know about our stupidity and fun this Friday. Haha~! (^__^)

Today is a FRIDAY. At the 13th. And no, I'm nowhere near UNLUCKY at all! I had a pretty fun and awesome day, actually. No unluckiness whatsoever. ^__^ I guess the world loves me today, eh? Let me start off my telling you guys about classes in the morning. They were fine, I guess. HAHAHA. I was leading most of the prayers today, by the way. I guess THIS IS WHY I'm quite lucky. HAHA. Also, I had tons of FUN today. LOLz. There were actually NO classes in the afternoon! The arts club worked on their paintings from 12:30 (noon) until 6:30 PM. LOLz. It was TONS of fun. It's like the whole club owned the library for the whole day. There's this exhibit in Robinsons Mall and our arts club is supposed to occupy it with our paintings, sculptures, and other type of art. I made two paintings. The first one I made was a guitar with wings and it was dripping blood. It also contained the text "ROCK" in a gothic font... Which was also dripping blood. The second painting I made was a red and black tribal pattern. Everyone else's works were hellah awesome.


By the time we were two hours before the closing time of the library, everyone was getting all frickin' pissed. Paint everywhere. Paintbrushes were scattered all over the place. We were all fighting for who gets the *insert color here* paint first. We were all bumping into each other and screaming if someone gets a little amount of paint brushed against the other one's skin. LOL. I tell you, being pissed has alot of amusing effects. MYRTLE~ because she was pissed that there wasn't enough water to clean the paintbrushes, she took a huge plastic bag and filled the whole fucking thing with water! That was like 3 liters of water in that bag. She stupidly placed the plastic bag in this random empty trash can so it won't spill. Eventually, something poked a hole into the plastic bag and flooded part of the room. >___<


So she hurriedly grabbed the really heavy plastic bag full of water and went outside the room and spilled all the water to an even bigger trash can. :)) JUSTINE~ got so pissed looking for the oil she was supposed to use to moisten the paint that she almost sounded like she was moaning from all the "urrrrghhhh" in looking for the oil. ME~ No, I didn't get pissed at all. GAH. Me so excited for the exhibit. Imma post pictures of my paintings here as soon as i get them.

Paint everywhere! Oh, and little things.... (^,..,^)
What Erika had failed to mention was our little 'adventure' around school when she and Myrtle literally left us in the dark. By the time we decided to leave the computer lab, we were all alone in the entire upper-floor of the school. COMPLETELY and UTERLY alone. Me, Tin and Min had to stop by the entrance next to the library to get my bag, which I had moronically left. All the while, the darkness was closing-in on us, and there were NO lights, whatsoever.




I climbed on this lower shelf (which I had now partially destroyed), through a window, and into the inner hallways. It was seriously dark in there, and I didn't even dare look past the glass door into the library. If you have any common knowledge about ghosts, you'd know that libraries are one of the most haunted places in school (especially ours), along with bathrooms -- particularly the girls -- and stairways.

After going through darkness, shadows, darkness and even more darkness, we failed to find an exit to the place. We were caged in the highschool building! And at some point, I screamed when we had to comb through the 2nd floor to escape downwards using the main stair cases. The whole experience scared us like shit. Unfortunetly, the twins had to head BACK cause' Tin left their lunchbox. Hahaha... XDD

Lots of blaming later, the twins journeyed back up the 3rd floor, screaming and running along the way.

Unlucky Chatter

This Friday -- or rather yesterday -- was when we, the members of the Arts Club, was called to the library to finish some last-minute painting for our Robinsons exhibition on Monday. We were allowed to cut some classes to do so, and Kai was more than happy to paint instead of hanging around our afternoon classes. More happy than actually necessary. (^.^);


We were already at the library when we received the news for the meeting. We were chatting about all the stuffs that's been going-on this week, especially Myrtle's encounters with different hobos around Gaisano Mall (the area underneath the walkway was practically Hobo Paradise). There was that straw-boy, whom Myrtle took an especially strong dislike for. He was a street boy who poked her with two pieces of straws from garbage cans over and over again. She was seriously creeped-out by him, and ran closer towards the mall with her band mates.
There was also this strange, mentally-retarded, old woman who commented on Myrtle's style for black clothing. I found this kinda' amusing. XDD
That woman probably thought Myrtle was a witch or something. (o-0)

Myrtle's horrible day went something like this:

---> Goes to St. Augustine College to meet Mikki there.

---> Goes there on taxi. Taxi has flat tire.

---> Driver lets her pay but leaves Myrtle on her own, who has NO idea WHATSOEVER on how to travel by jeep.

---> Myrtle attempts to chase taxi driver to ask him what jeep to ride.

---> Rides on the right jeep home.

---> People on the jeep stare at her for wearing non-casual clothes.

Tin also had some strange encounters with perverts, street people and hobos. One of those encounters involved being chased by a motorbike and some horny dude. (O_O);
Apparently, they were too lazy to change out of their home-clothes before arriving at Alta Tierra's nearest Supermarket...


Kai also told us a very lively narration about how she accidentally got to the mall with nothing but a mini-skirt on and a T-shirt without a bra~.
This surprised Tin, and repeatedly shouted the, "You went to the mall without a bra?! HaAhaha!" part. The whole class obviously overheard this, and giggled at our supposedly silent remarks.

Benevolent

R e a l i t y & I l l u s i o n;


This is a place where reality destroyed the lives of a few and gave
fortune to others. Illusions come every once in a while and escape
from you're grasps like an unwanted premonition when a touch of
truth and realization crosses it's path.

If you: the lucky ones, were able to help those who are honestly
in need of a guide . . . Would you? Would you even dare? They
might just see you as another threat, another harmful fragment
of reality. And yet, you must face undaunted circumstances when
you see those children whom reality had simply thrown away
into the dark.

Reality is crude, merciless and harsh.
She abandons those who have abandoned her with an equal
measure of cruel scrutiny. But out of all her traits, she is notably
honest and true. When she is kind, she becomes the best companion
you would ever meet.

Illusion is her enemy.
He is pleasing, he is painless, he is appealing. . . But above all,
he is your's and no one else's. He'll be whatever you want him to be.
They fight for dominance; An ongoing battle in which he is loosing,
but still clings for his existence as a part of reality.


Will you be one's bittersweet Illusion?
. . . Or one's harsh Reality?

Closure

Change

School is slowly drawing to an abrupt close, despite the fact that a form of happiness and contemplated contentment had settled within the consciousness of Angelicum students. What lies ahead is a surely a mystery, though only one thing is honestly certain:
They won't be together for long. The saga of eight highschool students disappear into the mundane background of life, separating, transforming, and changing. Now, meekly dwindled to become five.


The twins, who were supposedly moving to Canada, had tier arrangements postponed. Their parents, apparently, had few options for a permanently stable career, and were left with no choice but to leave their two daughters behind in hopes of avoiding less terminal hardship. It was for the betterment of the family; though they were disappointed to discover that their grandmother unexpectedly came to renew their premonition of change by officially moving them to a different school. Angelicum's tuition was much too high nowadays, and they simply couldn't afford it any longer.


The rising, tan-skinned star of uniquely intricate talents and unadaptive prowess has long been over her secret infatuations of a certain someone. Yet as a sideffect, was evidently subjected to discover her own true thoughts of faulty judgment and personality. Unfortunately, she once again finds herself being greeted by even more bittersweet relations after only moments of recovery. Would her desire for a perfect form of life bring her disappointment? Or would her silent perturbations grant her her wildest dreams which she had so haplessly -- and secretly -- wanted?

Change of Heart and Lyrics

Definitely Maybe
By FM Static

I met a boy named _____
and he lived in the heart of an area
He liked light clothing
listened to old-time music
and strummed till his hands were sore

He worked around the corner
at a shop with a grouchy owner
and he dates his girlfriend
out of kindness named '_______'
He loves her?
Definitely maybe

Don't think I can take it...
wake me when it's over!
He lives so far away
I wish that it was closer
I knew him since that day
I'm too scared to go over
I wonder what he'll say?
I barely even know him

And how much longer
will this keep getting stronger?
I wonder what he's doing
when I'm singing myself to sleep?
Cause she's a faker,
so see ya' later!
I wonder when he'll realize
that he means alot more to me?

I saw myself in hallways
when my last class was just over
It was Friday
school was out tonight
Everything seemed to be alright

I said, "Hey are you goin' to
that party at the Cove?" He said...
"I'm picking her up at six again,
cause' I don't wanna disappoint
my girlfriend."

And how much longer
will this keep getting stronger?
I wonder what he's doing
when I'm singing myself to sleep?
Cause she's a faker,
so see ya' later!
I wonder when he'll realize
that he means alot more to me?

And she's staring at his picture
hanging in her locker
She's telling all her friends
about all the things that he bought her
I heard what really happened
all those times he went for water
when they were at the movie theater
watching Harry Potter

He had his eyes on
every door he laid his hands on
Hate to brake it to you she's a pile-on
And even when he kissed her
he was looking over staring at a picture

So, how much longer
will this keep getting stronger?
I wonder what they're doing
when I'm singing myself to sleep?
Cause she's a faker,
so see ya' later!
I wonder when you'll realize
that you mean alot more to me?

I met a boy named _____
and he lived in the heart of an area
He liked light clothing
listened to old-time music
and strummed till his hand were sore

He worked around the corner
at a shop with a grouchy owner
and his girlfriend dates him
out of kindness named '_______'
He lover her?
Definitely maybe

Note: This song was edited by your's truly. Think of it as a female's version of it~.
You can find the actual song on youtube, Imeem and other various music and/or video oriented sites. This song can also be found in my music player.

Arigatou gozaimasu....

School Days - Romance and Gore

This anime is the shit. Please, if you don't like bloody murder love stories, then don't watch it. This ain't for the faint-hearted. :3
For some reason, I constantly listen to this particular song. It's just so sad and pretty. (>.<);


Song Title: Kanashimi no Mukou He

Sung By: Itou Kanako













Kanashimi no mukou e to
If I can make / my own way
tadoritsu keru nara
to the other / side of sorrow
Boku wa mou iranai yo
Then I wouldn't need / the light or warmth
nukumori no ashita mo
of tomor- / -row anymore

Seijaku no yami ni
The dream that silently landed
maiorita yume wa
in / the darkness of quiet lives
Who...? tsukanoma koboreta
Who...? Is the light / that briefly spilled
oou no hikari?
on my cheeks?

Why...? morosugita sekai
Why...? Without quite knowing / how
todomeru sube wo shirazu ni
the way to stop / this fragile world
Tada boku wa negatteta
I was simply wishing / for another world,
sou... boukyaku wo
or for / my own end

Kanashimi no mukou e to
If I can make / my own way
tadoritsukeru nara
to the other side of sorrow
Boku wa mou kore ijou
Then I wouldn't need / to feel at all
nani mo kanjinakute ii
anything / beyond / this world

Why...? kurikaesu kotoba
Why...? The repeating words / of hope
tsuieta yakusoku wa
the promise that / was made long ago
Hitokiwa utsukushiku hibiki
It rang in my heart like a / forgotten song
ima togireta
And now / no longer / ties

Zetsubou no mukou e to
Will you return / to the side
kimi wa kaeru no ka
of sorrow / and / despair?
Shijou no ai yukyuu no
The utmost love / entrusts it to you
hoo ni kegarenaki mi wo yudane
through the flow / of moon and sea

Kanashimi no mukou e to
If I can make / my own way
tadoritsukeru nara
to the other side of sorrow
Boku wa mou osorenai
Then I won't fear / the path towards
kodoku na nemuri sae...
the lonely sleep / anymore