Tracing Lines

Hey peoples! (^_^)
It's amazing what a good, long 8-hour sleep can do to you! I'm as hyper as fuck. XD I, like, haven't slept straight in a horribly long while. I'd sleep at 3AM in the morning, waking up 2-3 hours later by 5AM; for some reason, being unable to get back to sleep --- only to find myself fainting in the afternoon and wide awake again on 6PM-7PM. Sometimes, I'd fall asleep by 10:30PM and rise drunken-fashioned around 12PM or even 4PM in the afternoon! DD: It's seriously not considered a normal sleeping pattern (or should I say patterns?). Maybe I really AM insomnia-induced.... (o__o)


Okay, enough talking about my various health problems. 8D
On this particular post, I'd like to talk about cartoon art styles (since I pretty much suck at drawing/sketching real-life faces or bodies, I do cartoons and anime instead). Even now, my drawings produce widely random results if I were to be left alone with a pencil and a piece of paper which is usually the reason why it comes out looking like shit. Basically, I wanna settle for a solid style --- and I wanna ingrain that style into my brain until it becomes permanently etched into my memory. My ideal preference of a 'good' style should be detailed, sketchy and anatomatically correct I really suck at bodies.






Anime Style::
(warning, large file!)


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There are many art styles out there. And I mean a LOT (even the ones which don't seem like a style to you). I needed just one, and I'd tweak that style a lil' bit. The links above show a rather mature and challenging anime style to imitate (well, for me, atleast XD). But I love the sketchiness, the overall face structure and body positions. THAT'S how I want my drawings to look. If I could find the right mood to practice doing these, I just might be on my way to creating an original-looking character, which I'd typically scan and use them for whatever purpose I could come up with. At this point, I'm kinda just hoping my hands won't explode into puddles of sweat out of nerves when holding the pencil. (x__x)

Haha... Gambatte! :3

And Again

" Life is not about the things that you could have done, but about the things that can be still done. "



It's me again! Back in all my lazy glory. I've always had a problem with keeping myself motivated. In a way, I can't get it into my thick skull that my future career will be heavily based on my grades and school performance. Thinking about it, I definitely have more reasons to keep my brain intact and improve my study habits. And I don't just mean that cause' of college and potential jobs. *wink* Psch. Talk about pressure... I'm not giving them what they expect from me. And I guess I really owe my parents my whole friggin' life since they've bothered to bring useless little me into this world. :D


Life, atleast for me, has been very, very boring. This post probably won't exceed three decent paragraphs. I'm not even gonna promise my blog --- or any of the few reader out there --- with any interesting updates till heaven-knows-when. Maybe I can use this time to make something out of my facebook account? You know, for the hell of it. After all, it's been lying dormant inside my personality-induced ghetto of underused social network for months now (used it to view other facebook accounts and barely customized).


Another activity I have under my sleeve that prevents me from falling over the deep end of boredom is --- unfortunetly --- studying. Not JUST the usual studying, but more like the research type of studying. I've been flipping through websites involving my future-hometown for days now, especially wikipedia. Also, I'd like to state that I'm going to Liberty Highschool. The white students there look HUGE and intimidating. Asian student only makeup 1% of the overall student population. Hah! Well, there goes my hopes of simply blending into the background. (=__=) I'm also going into the current school year rather late, since I still have entrance exams to go through. Hmm... speaking of entrance exams, I'll also have to study about American history; not to mention review all my previous Math lessons. Ergh. I feel overloaded just thinking about it. Damn... I really wish Sanie could tutor me. She'd know the subjects I should cover. *sob*(T__T)



To sum it all up: My current days are empty and boring, while my future ones look cramped and busy.
It's like the calm before the storm. Eh, it's nice to know I'll have plenty to do real soon.

I'm So Sick

Note-to-self: Never wear sleeveless shirts inside an aircon-ed room and with wet hair.





It started with 20 sneezes under 5 minutes. Next thing I know, I get the usual symptoms of a fever. I can barely breath through my nose. (>__<) Headaches, glazed eyes and a sore throat. Not to mention snot-galore. Plus my 'curse'. Have I mentioned my laptop was sold for 8,000 pesos? It was sold, along with all my header images for my blog and various photos I've collected since last year. Luckily, it was sold to my grandparents, so I can have those back by next week. You know... if my mom hasn't deleted them already.... (-.-);
I'm currently borrowing my lola Agnes's acer laptop. It's much more advanced than mine, but it takes some getting used to. It's really small... I just can't seem to hit the shift key the right way, hence my current capitalization issues and the occasionally misplaced bracket.


Grr. (e__e)

3rd Year

" Faith is a passionate intuition; it is reason gone courageous.
Faith consists in believing when it's beyond the power of reason to believe. "



Today happens to be a holiday. This means no classes and, therefore, no RS-taking. As you may all know by this point, I'm supposed to be on my 3rd year of highschool. Thinking about my height (lack of chest and overall body build), I'm not even sure I look remotely like a highschool student, especially with the usual standards in US. But, then again, there seems to be alotta Asians there nowadays, so I'm trying not to worry about that.... much. The point is, I'm not that nervous about it anymore. Having all this free time at home has got my boredom-induced brain cells screaming, "Just get over with it already!!"


This may be one of my most pointless posts in the history of pointless posts. I have nothing to do. I eat, sleep, wake-up, face the laptop and review my RS stuff. Again, and again. And again. It never ends. It's like being homeschooled. *shudder* Now I know why Danny Davis acts the way he does. I'm not used to living such a sterile life. I'm used to moving around and getting myself into trouble busy. I'm actually afraid I might start retaining fat due to lack of physical activity (cause' of my fears, I've actually LOST weight). This vacation is lasting WAY too long. Wow... did I just say that? How odd.
I'm alone at home, stuck with my hyper brother and a mom who's currently living a life as sterile and unproductive as mine. I'm cut-off from my friends due to their busy schedules and my own empty one. *headdesk headdesk*


I think I'm making a big deal out of this. Besides this current boredom, the past 4 months have been pretty fun, too. The trip to Manila, my nights of chatting, the occasional movies at the mall with my mom and watching over my cute fatty brother has made it a satisfying time. Oh, have I mentioned my webcam is working real well, despite the fact it's VERY old? And I think my friends know what that means~. (^_~) Meh. It has it's ups and downs. Atleast I don't have to go through the crap of Statistics class like Kai and the twins. Life's good, I suppose~. I just have to balance my RS and boredom with the right sort of attitude.



PS: This post is totally random. No useful information here.

Unexpectedly Expected

" I have never failed. I've simply found 10,000 ways that won't work. "



Okay, first off, I'd like to mention my dad is coming here by September 3 and we'll be leaving by the 15th. I seriously wanna finish all my RS before he comes here... if I don't, he'll kill me. I'm not kidding. (-__-) This was only recently mentioned to me last Saturday, I think. Hmm, do I believe in luck? Yes. And no. Do I believe in days where absolutely almost nothing goes right? Of course I do.


This week seemed like it was made of nothing else but pure bad luck, which was particularly influenced --- in part --- by my own stupidity. On Sunday, due to this incessant addiction for my own laptop, I spent the night before net surfing, studying and sorting out a few personal matters (which were about the only things that went nicely XD) till' 4AM in the morning. I woke up about 12:30PM, meaning I was pretty late. I rushed to the bathroom at snail speed, waking up due to a brief stinging sensation in both my eyes. I wasn' even sure I was physically conscious half the time I was rubbing soap on my arms. (o-o) I picked-out whichever outfit my blood-shot eyes would have allowed me to see and loosely slung my shoulder bag across myself. Then I discovered my olive-green Mead notebook missing, spending a good 15mins rummaging around the house for it. I didn't find it. And I was late. So, I took my black notebook instead and headed for my ex-school on my usual mode of transportation when I'm too tired/lazy to walk.


Psch. Even finding a decent trisikad on a hot, humid day proved quite a challenge. Another 5mins pass and apparently none of those BLIND drivers spotted me. I was, basically, baking under the sun. When one did, it already had a single passenger on it. They usually let two people ride, which might have made you think this was convenient for me. Wrong. You see, there are two points which I typically use to get to school: Point A is where you ride straight through the main road and out through the area where other trisikads wait for passengers. Point B is where you reach a halfway point on the main road, but go left through a dirtroad which directly leads you facing the ASIL campus. I usually take Point B, cause I have to walk the rest of the way whenever the driver is forced to take Point A.
And~, since there was a 2nd passenger (who happened to be this rather scary dude O_o), I had no other choice but to comply with the walking. Fuck sensitive skin. This unfortunate Monday led to no progress on my dwindled list of RS cause' my actual list (which is written inside the same green notebook I couldn't find) was apparently needed. Luckily, I typed a copy of this list on my blog.


On Tuesday, however, things went from bad to worst. My list of RS grew. How, you ask? Simple. I copied the WRONG list. The same list I bothered to re-copy the other day wasn't even the right one. From just 4 skills to 8 skills. *palmface* Turns out, they changed the order of skills this year. You have no idea how inconvenient that was for me. (e__e)
Adding to my load is a 50-item activity from my English subject. Well, I guess it's better than doing four tests. I'm allowed to do it at home, anyway. Arghh... talking about all my backlog is a really irritating thing to do. But work comes first, especially when your time and sanity has just about reached it's limit. (^__^)

THEA by INK

To Hold Everything Above
by Imbue no Kudos


Oh~.

Walking alone, alone I am cold
Hopeless and dry, tears in my eyes
Perfect night, a shelter to my own
Eternal eve of my lonely soul
Of my lonely soul...

And then she came, graced by his voice
An echo whispered for a lovely cause
Dressed with a smile, a never ending sign
This is my chance to fill an empty line

Forever hold your faith,
For I will keep you safe
For I will keep you safe

Hold my hand and don't let go...
For all I know, I'd be seeing you from above
And if you fall, I will carry you strong
This I say, to hold everything above

Through this life
Of fame and fantasy
You made me care
For those who needed me

Forever hold your faith,
For I will keep you safe
For I will keep you safe

Hold my hand and don't let go...
For all I know, I'd be seeing you from above
And if you fall, I will carry you strong
And this I say, to hold everything above

Everything above...

Hold my hand and don't let go...
For all I know, I'd be seeing you from above
And if you fall, I will carry you strong
And this I say, to hold everything above

Everything above,
Everything above!

The Usual

" Experience is simply the name we give our mistakes. "
--- Oscar Wilde



Another day, another RS session. I got to school after lunch, and sat in a corner while miss went on with her droning discussions which sounded way too perky. It involved plenty of glaring, but no one payed much attention to me aside from the occasionally curious passerby. I finished about 4 and a-half tests, having my brain stretched and painfully poked when the topic of genetics came to view. That's about my only downfall: Genetics and the various forms of cellular respiration. All that talk about pyruvic acids, the Krebs Cycle and how amino acids are coded by the mRNA strand of... whatever.... could stretch my general understanding of the alphabet. Eh, I guess I just have to look at my notes more closely. D:


3:30pm came and went. Next thing I know... Kai and Tin pop-up, inviting me to come with them to a birthday party at Mitch's place. I couldn't really finish the test at that time without a sufficient amount of cheating, so I told them I'd come, aslong as Tin copied the questions on the tests for me. :3 Yeah, I guess you could count that as a lil' bit of cheating. I suppose you can say that the 'art' of cheating is considered a skilled yet infamous tradition borne from the same educational system that supports us. (^ ^);
There was seven of us: Mitch, Tin, Kai, me, Lorelei and Kea. Turns out the so-called party was for Mitch's baby sister who just turned a month old (which was kinda strange, since we were actually celebrating a monthday and not a birthday (-__-)). We rode a jeep to Alta Tierra. When we got to Mitch's street, we spent a long while just walking around, building our appetites for the food later on. We went to that rundown gym (it's an open, outdoor gym) and then the twin's house so they could change out of their uniforms. Then we made the long journey back, where we were greeted by Mitch's mom and her --- apparently crying --- sister.


We ate spaghetti (which tasted awesome) and shanghai rolls, complimented by the usual coke. The process of chucking down spaghetti was punctuated by our conversations about text mates, teasing, how Kai tripped on an invisible bug last month, and various unmentionable topics that are better left unsaid. *cough*itinvolvedtheDwordalot*cough* (^_^)


With our stomachs filled and our mouths tired, we decided to go home. But as soon as Kea and Lorelei captured the attention of a passing tricycle, Tin said she forgot my notebook back at her house (it had all my RS stuff in there D:). I got home tired; I was beat. Tired enough to barely notice my school clearance missing. But I think I eventually noticed, cause' next thing I know, I found myself in a flailing episode of silent hysteria. I PM'd Kai on YM, begging her to tell me what to do and eventually asked for the twin's landline phonenumber. Thankfully, that flimsy piece of paper I nearly murdered my bag over was found in their room....

Hahaha... (x__x)
And that is how my Tuesday ended.

Measuring

Pics of Cosplay Tailoring:
(courtesy of Lola Agnes's camera)











I noticed I'd barely post pictures of myself. So anyway, these are pictures from the time I came to my grandmother's sister-in-law to tailor my costume (she's the lady in the pics). Psch, I'm really not one of those camwhores who carry cellphones with a cam on it at all times. I can't even remember when was the last time I posted anything regarding my physical appearance. XD My lola just took random shots and whatnot. (-.-);
I'll probably include some stuff with me wearing the costume... you know, eventually.... when I'm feeling less lazy. (o o)

Hidden Words

" The whole point of getting things done is knowing what to leave undone. "



I'm in a bit of a tight pickle. It's that time of the month again (no, I'm not talking about that), where I choose my blog's "Song of the Month". As a general rule, I can't repeat songs from the same band/artist on the same year. It's for the sake of variety, peoples. And I still have no idea. I might have to use those two particular songs I've had on my mind for a while now. But, which one? Their both by the same band and they're both on my top list. I'm not usually this picky. Blahh... I guess my mood would have to be the sole judge of this. Good thing too, since these two songs portray a generally different message and feeling.


I've just noticed I've gone into some sort of blogging addiction. (o__O)
I have this strange compulsion to blog every 2-3 days. If I don't, I'd get a seizure. Well, okay, not really. But I'd feel this dull sense of uncomfortable-ness. It's not a very nice thing, since I only have until next week to finish all my damn RS. Why, you ask? Cause' my dad is arriving here from US. Yes, the same dad who yelled at me during that phonecall (Hah, it's not like I have any other dad). Will he be happy to see me and my brother? Yes, of course. Will he be happy to see me with around 20 unfinished skills? NO. In fact, I wouldn't be surprised if he took that threat of his seriously (he threatened to leave me behind).


I know what you're all thinking.... I'm an ungrateful, irresponsible bish for not finishing something that simply requires some hard work. Yeah, I guess I am. I wouldn't deny it, even when my nature as a teenager is all about lashing out and defending myself. I can be a moronic idiot, and I know it. I guess that makes me twice the idiot. Hehe... I have no idea how a post like this went from the topic of songs to obscurely bashing myself. But you know what they say, "You can merely blame and forgive yourself." (^.^);


I came to the school again today, arriving at 3:30pm. I passed by the comp lab --- and saw a my ex-classmates in there doing what they usually do --- and into Miss Marinel's room. Unfortunately, I found the classroom empty. I went down the faculty lounge and learned that Miss hadn't been in there the whole day. All I could to was run back to her room and snoop through her desks in order to find my list of skills to recopy (my old copy had puke spewed on it e__e).

List of skills:

406 - Explain the importance of Biology.
407 - Identify a few Filipino and foreign biologists and their contribution to Biology.
408 - Describe the various characteristics of living things.
409 - Explain and utilize the Scientific methods.
415 - Describe the process by which materials enter and leave the cell.
418 - Describe the two important events in photosynthesis (light dependent reaction and light independent reaction).
419 - Distinguish the differences and similarities of anaerobic and aerobic respiration.
420 - Describe the main events in cellular respiration (Glycolysis, Krebs cycle, Electron transport).
422 - Compare and contrast mitosis from meiosis.
423 - Briefly discuss gametogenesis.
424 - Compare and contrast DNA and RNA.
425 - Explain protein synthesis.
427 - Define genetics and Mendel's Principles of Heredity.
428 - Solve genetic problems regarding monohybrid and dihybrid crosses.
429 - Differentiate the types of mutation and identify factors which cause the said mutations.
430 - Cite the genetic issues and applications to the human quality of life.

Note-to-self: Never EVER shave your eyebrows. Trust me. Tweezers are way better. DD:

Strained Days

" The state of your insignificance is hard to fathom. "



For the past 2 days or so, my ex-school has been celebrating St. Dominic's Day. It's one of those yearly, repetitive school events which I really don't give a crap about. To be honest, I doubt anyone really cares about the meaningful reason behind the occasion aside from the fact there are no classes and you get to eat free food inside the the gym. It's a chance for parents to mingle, teachers to gossip, elementary kids to show-off and highschool students to flirt. And, yes, I am in a bad mood. :3
Well! This is certainly different~. I usually leave the emo-ish posts to Kai. Must be the mood swings. (^__^)


Okay, enough of that. Have I done anything worth posting? Maybe. Maybe not. I'm just bored again. I don't have much to do when I'm not occupying myself with RS sessions. But you know, I'd rather rot on my butt off at home than make aimless --- and cashless --- trips to the mall just to look good infront of random dudes. AND I'd rather type these elaborate series of rants than being told 'you're no fun'.
Basically, I'm just tired of the social circle I can't escape. The endless cycle of having to look appealing for the sake of reputations and popularity can get.... VERY irritating. Now, I'm not naming names --- simply because that's just not how I roll (atleast, not anymore). But, still, it's seriously not that hard trying to see right through them. Sadly, there isn't much to see, either. Heh, if you get what I mean. *shifty eyes*


Grr. Whatever. I need to relax and drain myself of such dark thoughts. (=__=)
Hmm... anger can be a very good motivation to type. Don't you think, ne? Well, I guess that's about it. I can't pour anymore information incase the devils I speak of come to personally haunt me. Not that it'd bother me. Hope I'm still breathing by next week!! :D



With lots o' vagueness,
- Jinmei

Again by YUI

Yume no tsuzuki oikaketeita hazu nano ni
Magari kunetta hosoi michi hito ni tsumazuku


Ano koro ni mitai ni tte modoritai wake janai no
naku shitekita sora wo sagashiteru
Wakatte kure masu you ni gisei ni natta you na
kanashii kao wa yamete yo


Tsumi no saigo wa namida janai yo
zutto kuru shiku seotte kun da
Deguchi mienai kanjou meiru ni
Dare wo matteru no< br />Shiroi NOOTO ni tsuzutta you ni
motto sunao ni hakida shitai yo
Nani kara no gare tainda
Genji tsutte yatsu


Kanaeru tame ni ikiterun datte
Wasure chaisou na yoru no mannaka
Bunan ni nante yattera renai kara
Kaeru basho mo nai no
Kono omoi wo keshite shimau ni wa
Mada jinsei nagai deshou (I'm on the way)
Natsukashikunaru
Konna itami mo kangei jan


Ayamara nakucha ikenai yo ne ah gomen ne
Umaku iena kute shinpai kaketa mama datta ne


Ano hi kakaeta zenbu
ashita kakaeru zenbu
Junban tsuke tari wa shinai kara
Wakatte kuremasu you ni
sotto me wo tojitanda
Mitakunai mono made miendamon


Iranai uwasa ni chotto
hajimete kiku hatsugen docchi
Mukai attara tomodachi datte
Usou wa yamete ne
Fukai HAATO ga iradatsu you ni
karadan naka moete irun da
Hontou wa kitai shiten no
Genjitsu tte yatsu


Kanaeru tame ni ikiterun datte
Sakebi taku naru yo kikoete imasu ka
Bunan ni nante yattera renai kara
Kaeru basho mo nai no
Yasashisa ni wa itsumo kansha shiteru
Dakara tsuyoku naritai (I'm on the way)
Susumu tame ni
Teki mo mikata mo kangei jan


Dou yatte tsugi no dou wa
akerun dakke kangaeteru
Mou hikikae senai monogatari hajimatterun da
Me wo samase... me wo samase...


Kono omoi wo keshite shimau ni wa
Mada jinsei nagai deshou
Yarinokoshiteru koto yarinaoshite mitai kara
Mou ichido yukou


Kanaeru tame ni ikiterun datte
Sakebi taku naru yo kikoete imasu ka
Bunan ni nante yattera renai kara
Kaeru basho mo nai no
Yasashisa ni wa itsumo kansha shiteru
Dakara tsuyoku naritai (I'm on the way)
Natsukashikunaru
Konna itami mo kangei jan